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Third degree

This week's Friday Five are some finger-wagging, parental-interrogation-style questions. I have decided to look the imaginary questioner straight in the eye and fire back my answers. Ready?

1. Where do you think you're going?
Nowhere, really. But that's okay. I'm almost 60 years old, and I'm in kind of a decent place right now: employed, solvent, more or less healthy, getting along well with my family, reasonably at peace with my choices.

Alternate answer: NYC, ASAP. :-)

2. Who do you think you are?
A smart, funny person who is capable of kindness (and who at least means no harm). Someone who loves beauty and is open to finding it anywhere. A sincere person who has been a bit of a disappointment to herself in terms of fulfilling youthful potential, but who has decided that she can live with it. Someone who can't seem to quit religion, possibly because she still loves God. A beta personality who has spent most of her adult life shaking off earlier anti-progressive spiritual & political indoctrination, ultimately arriving at what she is convinced is a more humane -- if less definite -- set of convictions. A loyal friend. A hard worker, when she knows what she's supposed to do. A person who needs people, but who runs hot and cold on whether this places her among the luckiest people in the world. A goody-two-shoes whose soles are wearing thin. Someone who probably hasn't quite checked her privilege. A person who still cherishes a few illusions about herself, but who has given up believing that she's capable of much in the way of personal discipline. A woman who probably deserves (in the local, if not the cosmic sense) a little happiness, but who also understands that we don't always get precisely what we deserve (and that this is undoubtedly a good thing, in the grander scheme of things).

3. What's gotten into you?
I'm thinking maybe a little, umm, crush. I don't know for sure, but it's fun to play around with the idea of it in my mind, anyhow.

4. How do you expect to pay for all this?
I just won't live a long time post-retirement. It's pretty a good bet, seeing as how I don't take the greatest care of my body (diet- and exercise-wise).

5. When are you going to come to your senses?
Regarding the Man, and what it's reasonable to expect out of life? Regarding the alleged connection between faith and right-wing politics? I think I have done, and none of it was easy, but I'm better off. Regarding the toxicity of organized religion? Probably never. I see it, but I can't walk away.
 

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scrivener
Mar. 15th, 2019 09:19 pm (UTC)
life's unfair, thank goodness
Amen to it's being good we don't get what we deserve. We'd be even more miserable than we are now.
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