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The Distracted Woman's Daybook (52)

Here's what's up with me.

The Distracted Woman's Daybook
(idea based on one by Peggy Hostetler; concept revision by Angie Brennan; other changes are mine)

my 'Mad Men Yourself' iconIn my front yard... the grass is wet and overgrown. We just had a lovely weekend, but in general there has been nothing but rain here for weeks.

Around the house... we have made incredible progress in de-cluttering, which ultimately translates to the remnants of 30 years of my life ending up in a landfill, which hasn't been easy for me (the week that the dumpster sat in my driveway, slowly filling with the Man's and my accumulated junk -- plus whatever perfectly good stuff Two and then Fiancée thought I wouldn't miss if they sneaked it in -- was pure H-E-double-hockey-sticks).

In the kitchen... the leftovers from Number Two Son's rehearsal dinner and wedding reception fill the fridge and freezer, while a little bit of the mess from making the wedding cake (which, yes, I did) still has to be cleaned up.

I am pondering... marriage, and whether (in a fantasy world in which wishing would make it possible) I'd actually want to do it again. I don't like not having a partner, but it's not as if I'm truly all by myself (not right now, at least), and at my age, I'm not sure the potential gains (associated with partnering up again) outweigh the risks. To be honest, I'm really not sure they do for anyone at any age, but I have to be hopeful for my son and his new bride, right?

I am hoping... that the newlyweds figure out how to have a long and happy life together.

I am learning... that a person can never rest easy. The latest word from HR at College No. 2 is that they are cutting back on benefits to adjuncts, and, beginning in January, I may not be able to buy insurance during the months when classes aren't in session. Because the paycheck-less months are really the ones when you don't want to be insured.

I am thankful for... my kids.

I am wearing... fall clothes: specifically, a burgundy (& black & beige) plaid flannel-ish skirt with a long-sleeved beige twinset top. The outfit suited the weather outside my house this morning, and it then kept me warm in the ridiculously over-air-conditioned building where I teach.

I am creating... well, if you'd asked me three days ago, I'd've said a wedding cake. But it has been created and consumed now! I didn't even photograph it (there was a "no cell phones" policy at the event, so I left mine in the car), but surely the professional photographer did, and in a week or so I may have something I can show you.

I am going... to NYC for a day next week during College No. 1's fall break.

I am reading... more books by Stephen McCauley; however, due to the wedding, the pace has been slow.

I've been watching... Chuck, a fun series about a reluctant spy that I somehow missed when it aired on NBC a decade ago. Zachary Levi is adorable in it.

I've been listening to... Dave Tull's I Just Want to Get Paid. Great album!

One of my favorite things... is the thrill of a new (to me) aesthetic discovery, in this case Dave Tull.

I am looking forward to... the NYC trip mentioned above. I am hoping to visit both the Frick Collection and the Jewish Museum (unless the former turns out to be quite enough for one day).

My plans for the rest of the week... include grading the papers that I neglected in favor of the boy's wedding.

A quote for today... “The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved; loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves." – Victor Hugo

I do believe that's true (hence, my years of post-love suffering), and, despite my fears, I am glad my Son is getting to experience it.

Here is a song I am sharing with you... Dave Tull: